Enter at your own risk.

2 weeks ago some chick came to my school doing this presentation on Idekw then she told us her story. She started cutting herself after a boy she liked told her to slit her wrists and die… Long story short she cut, she almost died and stopped. Now she travels around Canada telling people her story. I felt saying I’ve had it worse but my story doesn’t mean shit. I’m not going to inspire anyone or help anyone recover all I do is send messages to people wether it helps or not it gives me purpose. The pain was worth it.

i have a not so healthy snack.

sunkissed-beachbums:

• i have pills
• a bottle of ny quil
• two monsters
• a razor 
• and an apple.

try and stop me.

(Source: sluts4nd-surfingl3gends)

I am the maniac, I am the fool
I found a monster in me when I lost my cool
It lives inside of me eating whats in its web
Put black spray paint on my windows during the day
Wanna spend time with it, I think I’m losing it
Or I found it and I’m using it
I wear my shades at night so I can look in the abyss
I see something in nothingness if you could picture this

“so fast, so maybe
i’ll get baked on the daily
put my feet up, let my mind go hazy
little did i know shit would get this gnarly
this quickly, i hardly had time to think
no time to think”

“I love that moment, right before I put the glass pipe to my lips… That moment when everything is sane, and the craving, the salivating, the excitement all feel fresh and innocent. It’s like forplay…the ache that’s way better then the orgasm.

i wish i was “sick” again…not just skinny, sick. But on second thought healthy feels way better. it’s still hard.

Recovery plan I’ve been off for a long time

Breakfast:  2 cups cereal with whole milk and a piece of toast spread with peanut butter/ butter and jam. And a glass of orange juice.

Snack: 300 calories like a protein bar and a banana.

Lunch: A sandwich with 2 pieces whole meal bread, mayo, turkey and cheese and a high cal cereal bar.

Snack: 300cal boost shake when i got home.

Dinner: Large serving of carbs, 2 portions of vegetables and 1 protein.

Before bed: 500ml 2% chocolate milk and piece of fruit 

roughly 3000 calories….